So I started FT hours at work again this past week. And I'm just nerdy enough to really love my job, but all the same I've been feeling a little bit of dread. Because I know in the past that the longer I work FT hours, the more exhausted I become because of FMS/CFS.
And as I become more and more exhausted I begin to shut down. It doesn't take long for me to get to the point where I'm so tired when I get home that I barely have the energy to make and eat dinner before going to bed. I go to bed earlier and earlier each night so that I can get enough sleep to make it through the next day. I only worked 2 days last week and slept 14 hours last night and still woke up tired today. People who know nothing about Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome will tell me, oh, it'll get better as you get used to it. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way.
Its my creativity that really suffers. That's what I dread; becoming so fatigued that I'm unable to do anything creative. Being creative is my joy and I don't want to become so exhausted that I'm unable to do what I enjoy. Even if its accomplishing just one thing, I want to spend at least a little bit of time being creative every day.
With that in mind, on Thursday night I strung a necklace and a pair of earrings. Friday I sanded some pendants. Today I made two necklaces and a pair of earrings. I need to put finishing touches on my Hero & Shadow panels and get them photographed tomorrow. I have ideas for more pendants I want to try, plus more ideas for mosaic pieces. I may not be able to accomplish much on weeknights, but I hope to really shine creatively on the weekends.
So that's my goal, a little something creative every day, and hopefully I'll find that manageable as well as fulfilling while I'm back working FT.
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